I've abused myself.

I’ve abused myself.
Intellectual abuse, it has been.
I’ve committed a great crime, self perpetuated.
I’ve robbed my mind of what it has been granted by the Most High.
I’ve starved my intellect.
I’m thirsty for knowledge.
I’m bereft of any thinking.
I’ve switched off.
I’ve lost focus.
My brain cells have become satiated with shallowness.
Laziness has permeated my mindset.
I’ve allowed procrastination to take control of the reins.
I’ve failed in my duties to my intellect.
I’ve stopped thinking.

Allah, subhanna wa ta3alaa, has created man thus:

He is the One who perfected everything He created, and started the creation of the human from clay. Then He continued his reproduction through a certain lowly liquid. He shaped him and blew into him from His spirit. And He gave you the hearing, the eyesight, and the brains; rarely are you thankful. (32:7-9)

Indeed, man is an honourable creature. The creature with higher intellect. Heck, there’s 1.3kgs of grey mass up there burrowing in our skull. And what have I done, I’m destroying it, destroying myself of any chance to enhance and nurture this gift from Allah. Wallahi, I’ve abused myself and neglected the blessing granted to us all by Allah.

Ya Rab, allow me to make use of the blessing granted by You, in order that I may use it to please You.
Ameen.

ma3assalam.