This evening I was reading people’s thoughts on the issue of death on a forum I am active on. The question - are you scared of death. The overall verdict - no. Then I asked myself the same question for the millionth time as I do when I get into those moods.
My answer was this - I am more scared of death than anything else in the world. Life experiences and the passing of close ones have taught me things and despair does come over me in moments of weakness. I remember being put under general anaesthetia for an operation I was to undergo, and begging my sister not to leave my side, although this was a few months ago. And to be totally honest, I cannot remember what was scaring me to that extent. Was it the possiblity of leaving my mum behind? I do not think it could have been because I have faith in the British system of anaesthesia and the like. No, it couldn’t have been that. If I am answering honestly , it was probably the thought of the unknown. I was entering something I didn’t know much about and it scared me silly.
Allah (swt) has promised every human being the taste of death, and I am no different. Yet the belief in that is set in stone, its just the acceptance of the aftermath that is rather troubling and worrying. I often think to myself that there is so much out there that I have no clue about, death being one of them. Islam brings me peace and sakinah and I am happy. What I am probably trying to say is that, the issue of death is going to take some maturity to understand and I must get to grips with it , as I do not know when it will approach.
And what did I learn .... to go and find out about what Islam says about death and Al Ghaib - the unseen. Surely, knowledge is a worthy companion to faith, for it may bring comfort to it in times of weakness.
Salam alaykum.
2 comments:
Sometimes, when I'm sitting alone, doing nothing at all, the thought of death crosses my mind. I break out in a cold death, and think of new things to think about so I don't feel so scared any more.
I agree with you, its the entire thought of the unknown, and the realization that I haven't been living up to my expectations as a human, and as a slave to Allah.
Lovely post the truth stands in your iman
alaykum salam ,thanks for the visit.
its the times that i am alone that i also feel that way especially under the dark covers, imagining what it may be like in the grave.
But, I am concluding that the more prepared we are for it , the lesser the fear that grips the heart. This is because we tend to get less scared of things once we've de-mystified it . I suppose in this case , this process can only occur once we have learnt of what awaits us all, inshallah.
take care
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